Larger family?

Mary Alice was sort of wishing she had a larger family.  Not that the family she has isn't perfect.  Just in a different world, she would have wanted more children.

I feel the same way.  Especially since I married Dwaine.  Back in the day, when I was married to that first husband of mine, one child was not enough and two children were definitely too many.  And when I was a single parent for those 11 years, the two girls I had were more than enough children for me and I was grateful that I had both of them and that I didn't have any more.

But now...I get a longing for another one.  One that I could raise in a two parent household.  I'd like to experience that.  With Vincent living with us, I get large tastes of what that could be like.  But it isn't the same.  Because he's not our child.  He's our grandchild.  When I'm doing things with him, sometimes I wonder if I would be doing the same things, only differently, with him if he was my child.  Of course, then my brain explodes.

And there is absolutely no chance that a baby will accidentally happen to me.  I'm spayed and Dwaine's neutered.  And Dwaine's adamant that we're much too old to do something silly, like adopt a child.  So I'll always just get to wonder what it would be like.  And I'll spoil my grandchildren like crazy!